Band: Dir en grey
Pairings: KyoxKaoru, KaoruxToshiya, DiexShinya (side pairning)
Genre: Angst, humor
Warnings: Yaoi, self mutilation
Rating: R (maybe higher later on)
Disclaimer: I don't own Dir en grey, Yoshiki, or anyone/thing else I may have mentioned in this fic, so please don't sue me... not that I have anything worth suing for... o_o;;
Summary: What will Kyo do when his feelings for Kaoru drive him insane because of Kaoru and Toshiya's relationship?
I stand in front of a mirror, examining myself staring back at me. To start at my unruly hair, to my plain, empty eyes, and to my scarred, mutilated body: the work “kawaii” has no meaning. Next to you I feel like a speck of dirt. You’re so beautiful, I couldn’t help by fall in love with you the first time I laid eyes on you; but of course, like any cliché novel, you’re with someone else. Of course you are, I mean, just look at him, he’s perfect! “He’s so beautiful!”, “He’s so sexy”, “How cute!”, “Kakko ii” they always say. It’s enough to make me vomit. But I’m just saying this out of jealousy… he’s one of my best friends, I should be happy for you guys, but…
“You’re just a two-faced little bitch.”
I don’t even remember shattering the glass anymore…
Every time I see him touch you I want to hurt him. I want to hurt you both… I should want you to be happy, but that’s not the case.
... I see my reflection again in a shard I pick up.
I remember all of those times he had taken you home. Usually we three would sit around talking, I felt like a third wheel, so I left for my room after a while. Soon after that the sound of footsteps and another closing door would be heard.
... The sight of glass cutting through flesh slowly melts into nothing but crimson…
You know, sometimes a dead left ear isn’t enough…
To be continued...
Very very short... ^^;; Usually I put the prologue and chapter one in the same post, but I decided not to this time for no reason, haha. So tell me what you think.
Chapters one through four are posted on my journal, so add me if you wanna read. Just post a comment to my lj and I'll add, nothing special.